I am having one of those conflicting days. The devil is really on my back this morning. I see something positive that uplifts me and then the devil throws a wrench in those plans and makes me question "Why not me?"
I am going to run with that thought for a minute. No, I'm not going to let the devil win, just bear with me, I think you will like where the Lord is leading me with this. Why not me Lord? Why do everyone else's dreams get to come true except for mine? Why do other ministry couples get to have fruitful ministries? Why can't I have the perfect body? Why can't I have a healthy body? Why can't I run a 10 minute mile? Why can't I make more money? Why can't I afford to do things that I desire? Why can't I have a baby? Why can't I make all of Aaron's dreams come true? Why can't I speak eloquent words? Why can't I write beautiful blogs? Why can't I do this and why can't I do that? You know it's normal for Christians to feel like this sometimes. It's how we handle these questions that either draws us closer to the Lord or lets the devil win. It's time like this when I have to listen to the promises of the Lord. In Jeremiah 29:11 the Lord makes a promise to me that soothes my soul - "For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to to give you hope and a future." This tells me that His plan and mine aren't currently aligned. Now it's time for me to turn to Him and seek His face and ask Him to show me the way, to guide down the path that He has set just for me - and ask Him to help me follow His plan for my life. When I do that, my dreams will align with His and will come to fruition.
There is so much to be heard about prayer - sermons, scripture, devotions, hymns, songs - but why don't we listen? Why do we chose to handle so much in this world on our own instead of turning to Him first. My Proverbs 31 devotion talked about that this morning. When is it something major, we turn to Him to him first, but the little stuff we try to handle on our own and only turn to Him once we become completely exasperated and feel like we are at our wit's end.
Lord, my desire is to turn to You in all things. Help me to have a humble heart. Help me dear Lord to seek You first. Lord, fill my heart like You have never filled me before. Guide and direct me Lord. Show me the path and guide me dear Lord. Help me to follow the plans that you have set for me. Lord, I know the future is uncertain for us right now, but Lord I know You have plans for us. Help us to seek You out in this plan. Help us to follow your guidance. Lord, help us to glorify Your name, help us to prosper. Thank You sweet Jesus for the work that I know that you are going to do in our lives. Thank You for loving me!!