Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Week 1 Results

I know, I have already have a post titled Week 1 results, but since I took a monthly long hiatus, it's week one again.......

I'm down 2.5 pounds!!!!!

Collectively between the bust, waist, and hips I lost an inch, but the thigh and arm combined for an inch gain....so overall no inches lost this week.

In the last post, I told you how down and out I have been feeling and I can already see a turn-around in my attitude and the way I feel about myself.  Despite not getting enough sleep last night, I feel really good this morning and even have make-up on!!  I know, you are probably thinking, what's the big deal about having make-up on, well here goes.....I have never been one that had to be all dolled up...I'm most comfortable in a pair of blue jeans, cute shirt, & a ball cap, with my make-up on.  I am also one that is usually 20-30 minutes early for work, but since I have gained weight and felt "frumpy" that hasn't been the case....I have not been wearing my make-up or fixing my hair for that matter, and I haven't been early for work at all....I would say at least 4 days a week I am 5-10 minutes late for work.  Today, I wasn't as early as I normally am, but I was 5 minutes early.  I didn't get up to go walking this morning because it was so late when I went to bed, but despite not getting enough sleep, I really do feel good....very upbeat and positive today.  I can do this, I will do this, and I am going to do this!!!

Several weeks ago, I made a deal with myself...I had to lose 10 pounds to get my hair cut....but I gained 6 pounds.  I have made myself a rewards chart several times, but never reaped a single reward....I guess I had it set too high.  So I am going to do my rewards in increments of 8 this time.  My ninth reward will be GOAL!!  My first reward is going to be getting my eyebrows waxed....which desperately need to be done.  So when I am 5.5 pounds lighter than where I am currently at they get done!!!  Baby steps, baby steps!  My birthday is in 10 weeks, so I am setting myself a mini goal of 20 pounds by then.  I know that every week will not have a loss and some weeks the loss will be less than others, so if I need to adjust it a little I will, but I think I can do it!!  Help keep my on track!!

Let's rock on out!!  Much love to all!!!

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Complete Overhaul

As you can tell, it's been a while since I have posted, so you know that means I haven't been following my Visalus and have gained weight.....6 pounds and 2.25 inches to be exact.

I really had a major epiphany tonight and hopefully this is just what I needed.  While at my aunt and uncle's house, in shorts, I noticed how long the hair on my legs was (gross, I know), but the truth of the matter is, that has become the norm for me.  I know with the weight gain I have become a little bit depressed, but at the same time, I have quit taking care of me because I just didn't feel like I deserved it.  I have only been shaving my legs about every 2 weeks, (again, gross, I know), but it's reality, I haven't been wearing any makeup or fixing my hair, I never wear any jewelry, or take time to make sure I look nice when I get dressed.  I feel frumpy, therefore, I have become frumpy.  I know I deserve better, but I also know that Aaron deserves better.  I was doing so well with getting up in the morning and going walking/running but it didn't take long before that stopped.  If it means that I have to drink a whole bottle of water before going to bed at night, so that I have to get up and pee and that will make go walking in the morning, then dammit that's what I am going to do.  The only way that my body is going to change is if my mind and heart changes.  I have to tell myself that it is occasionally ok to have a cheeseburger, but having one for lunch one day doesn't mean having a cheeseburger, french fries, and a milkshake the next day and the day after that and the day after that, etc.  You get the picture.  But that has been my reality, but right now starts a new reality.  Each and every day is a new day and yesterday's choices and decisions will not affect today's.  And that new reality and new day starts now!!

I just took a long shower, complete with shaving my legs.  Afterwards I did something I haven't done in a long time, but need to be doing everyday....putting lotion on!  I know, that seems insignificant to most, but it really is major to me.  I deserve to have lotion on my legs and arms no matter what my weight is or what I have eaten that day!  I deserve to be and feel beautiful about myself and I am the only one that can change that mindset!

With all that said.....it's time to go drink a whole bottle of water and an Advil so I can get up in the morning to go pee and then go walk/run.

Much love and hopefully this overhauled engine will keep on going!!