Wednesday, May 22, 2013

New Chapter

Oh wow.  It has been 9 months since I've lasted posted.  I guess that let's you know the way things have been going.  The weight loss is still a see-saw.  I lose 3 pounds and then gain 5, that sorta thing.  I have gotten refocused this month and am doing better, staying consistent.  I have started doing DietBet.  I started it in the beginning of April with my friend Rebecca.  The first half of the month I was doing good, but then I fell completely off the wagon.  It really stung that I had paid money to lose weight and then at the end of the "bet" weighed more that I when i started.  I started a new "bet" for the month of May.  My 4% goal for May is 8.6 pounds.  I gained a little over Mother's Day weekend with cookouts and family dinners, but I have stayed consistent and got that off, plus some more.  I currently have 12 days left in this bet and I have 1.5 pounds to go to make it.  I WILL DO IT!!

On a different note - Aaron turned 37 at the beginning of the month.  As he keeps reminding me that he's not getting any younger, I scheduled an appointment with my OB/GYN to start the fertility testing.  I have PCOS and don't ovulate and have periods.  I have been really bad about going, because I don't want to face the music.  I thought it had only been 2 years since I went, but was shocked to find out that I haven't been in 4 years.  Of course she jumped on my about my weight gain - 45 pounds since I was last there.  I go tomorrow for blood work and start taking hormone pills tonight.  My weight is something that I've got to get under control and we are going to start having appointments about my diet and nutrition.  With all of my health problems and medications, I know the weight is just making it worse and making it harder to get pregnant, if I even can.  To quote Dr Knuckles - I "have to get my body ready to fight, because it is going to be a fight to get pregnant".  She is really hoping that if I get some of the weight off, that I can get off of some of my meds.  And honestly, I think she is right and hoping it does as well.  

I know that I am going to have "bad" days where I want junk & pizza, and that's ok.  As long as I work hard, it's ok to "treat" myself some.  I know that I am going to have days when I gain, and that's ok to.  I just can't let a gain get me off track like I normally do.  When I have a gain, I just know that i have to work that much harder to get it back off.

 This is just the ammunition I need to keep me focused and on track.  I am going to continue to do DietBet's because money is great motivation.  Getting healthier and feeling better about myself is great motivation.  Having a baby is great motivation!  If I can't do it with all of these motivators, I don't know what can make me do it.

Since we are now traveling a new road that I haven't traveled before, I better get off here and pay attention to the road.  While flying around the curves, I will be working on my curves!  Wave when you pass me!!

Happy Birthday Mama!!!  I love you!!